SATAN! A sneaky little bugger?

I know its been a while since I have posted last but I have been busy with work and preparing to go on a mission to Cleveland Ohio and all. ;-) but anyways In Sunday school today I heard a really cool and really true story.

"If you put a frog in a boiling pot of water the frog will just jump out. Now if you put the frog in the pot of cold water and just warm the water a little at a time the frog will like it and soon enough he will jump out or die in there."
--Elder Seth Floyd Hanson

SO TRUE! That is how Satan works in our lives. He doesn't go full blast on us. He slowly works on us until we break and follow him. I will like to share another story with you and this happen.

I got my mission call on June 29th and I was called to the Cleveland Ohio. I was so excited that night after I opened it but that split second that I doubted myself SATAN CAME! The next few weeks after that I would think of going on my mission then again that split second of doubting he would come. I felt like nothing worked. I prayed at at least 3 times a day, read my scriptures every chance I got and it didn't help. So this past week I was so pumped I hit 5 more weeks till I leave for Cleveland I was thinking of what I was going to do on my mission how I was going to teach I was even practicing my door approaches. I wasn't even doubting this time and when I fell asleep not even 20 mins later I felt a hand that was literally burning my leg. I immediately jumped and I saw him. SATAN was at the end of my bed and I stared at him for what felt like an eternity but for only an hour. It was the longest hour ever. I felt like Heavenly father was not with me anymore and I felt like my shield was gone that night. So the next day I called the Elders in my area Elder Hanson and Elder Walch and I told everything to Elder Hanson and both of them gave me a priesthood blessing and that night I went home and I laid in my bed and right beside my bed I have the poem "Footsteps" and at the end of that poem it says "When you saw one set of footprints that was when I was carrying you." That night I felt Heavenly Father's arm engulf me and I felt like I had my shield back again.

I share this with you because it brings me back to the frog story. I was the frog to Satan and each experience    got more and more stronger like the water got hotter and hotter. Then the last experience I had was the boiling point of the water.

Brother's and sisters I want to bear you my testimony that SATAN is REAL and is around us every day trying to tempt us and persuade us to go his direction and not Heavenly Father's direction. I KNOW this church is true with all my heart and I KNOW that we have a living prophet who is Thomas S. Monson who leads us and guides us every step of the way. I KNOW this Gospel is TRUE and I am so excited to preach it to the people of Cleveland Ohio. I say these things in the sacred name of the Lord Jesus Christ. Amen.

The continuous Atonement!

‎" I'll never do it again," we say--and then we do it. In a work full of challenges, temptations, and even addictions, it is easy to lose hope for ourselves and those we love. During times of discouragement, we must remember that the purpose of the Atonement of Jesus Christ is not just not cleanse and console, but also to transform--and that takes time. Christ is not waiting at the finish line once we have done "all we can do." He is with us every step of the way, and his atonement will be available as long as the perfecting process takes--continually.

This is the first paragraph of this book I read when I was flying back from Utah. The person that sat by me said "What did he ever do for you." She was asking what Jesus did for me and I said "He performed the ultimate sacrifice so I can return to him again. The Atonement, the continuous Atonement." She was sitting there and asked "What is the atonement?" and right there while I was wearing Reuben Miner's name tag I felt like I was a missionary so the next hour I was teaching her the atonement and how Heavenly Father gave his only begotten son to die for us and take our sins upon him so when we came down to earth we would have a chance to repent when we sin and be able to come back and live with our heavenly Father and our older brother Jesus Christ. I also told her through the atonement we can become one step closer to perfection. When we got into Kalispell knowing I always have a copy of the Book of Mormon and when we got off the plane i gave it to her and wrote down the scriptures of the atonement and about Jesus Christ. She had the biggest smile on her face when she left. I do know that Heavenly Father lives and Jesus Christ did the ultimate price for me and you and I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.  

He will ALWAYS love you no matter what!

"I am the thorn in Your crown but You love me anyway
I am the sweat from Your brow but You love me anyway
I am the nail in Your wrist but You love me anyway
I am Judas' kiss but You love me anyway"




For the people that are following my blog I like singing and making music. Well me and a friend took bridge from another song and made it ours and when I always sing this part I ALWAYS feel a sense of comfort and security that he loves me for who I am. Jesus Christ came down in Flesh and bone and walked with us on earth and he died for us. We were that thorn, we were that sweat from his brow, we were that nail in his wrist, we were that kiss Judas gave to Jesus BUT he STILL love us. NO MATTER WHAT!!!!!

NEVER judge anyone!!!!

A doctor entered the hospital in hurry after being called in for an urgent surgery. He answered the call ASAP, changed his clothes and went directly to the surgery block.
He found the boy’s father going and coming in the hall waiting for the doctor. Once seeing him, the dad yelled:
“Why did you take all this time to come? Don’t you know that my son’s life is in danger? Don’t you have the sense of responsibility?”

The doctor smiled and said:
“I am sorry, I wasn’t in the hospital and I came the fastest I could after receiving the call…… And now, I wish you’d calm down so that I can do my work”

“Calm down?! What if your son was in this room right now, would you calm down? If your own son dies now what will you do??” said the father angrily

The doctor smiled again and replied: “I will say what Job said in the Holy Bible “From dust we came and to dust we return, blessed be the name of God”. Doctors cannot prolong lives. Go and intercede for your son, we will do our best by God’s grace”

“Giving advice when we’re not concerned is so easy” Murmured the father.

The surgery took some hours after which the doctor went out happy, “Thank God! Your son is saved!”

And without waiting for the father’s reply he carried on his way running. “If you have any question, ask the nurse!!”

“Why is he so arrogant? He couldn’t wait some minutes so that I ask about my son’s state” Commented the father when seeing the nurse minutes after the doctor left.

The nurse answered, tears coming down her face: “His son died yesterday in a road accident, he was in the burial when we called him for your son’s surgery. And now that he saved your son’s life, he left running to finish his son’s burial.”

NEVER JUDGE ANYONE because you never know how their life is and as to what is happening or what they’re going through.

Are you worth dying for????

I have been thinking about this song a lot and it has been stuck in my head for the past three weeks. I didn't know if it meant something to me or am I supposed to write a blog about it. Well I got my answer.  
You might be the wife, waiting up at night, you might be the man, struggling to provide, feeling like it's hopeless.
Maybe you're the son, who chose a broken road, maybe you're the girl, thinking you'll end up alone praying God can you hear me? Oh God are you listening? 
Am I more than flesh and bone? Am I really something beautiful? Yeah, I wanna believe, I wanna believe that I'm not just some wandering soul that you don't see and you don't know Yeah I wanna believe, Jesus help me believe that I  Am someone worth dying for.  
I know you've heard the truth that God has set you free but you think you're the one that grace could never reach so you just keep asking, what everybody's asking
You're worth it, you can't earn it yeah the Cross has proven that you're sacred and blameless your life has purpose 
You are more than flesh and bone can't you see you're something beautiful yeah you gotta believe, you gotta believe He wants you to see, He wants you to see that you're not just some wandering soul that can't be seen and can't be known yeah you gotta believe, you gotta believe that you are someone worth dying for

You're someone worth dying for you're someone worth dying for!

Sometimes we feel like we are worthless. We have no point to life. Some of us may be asking ourselves "Are we someone worth dying for?" To be honest I have asked that to myself. Even before I got baptized into the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints but I am here to say YES! You are someone worth dying for. You are something beautiful. Heavenly Father has a plan for EVERY SINGLE PERSON on this earth. Just like it says in John 3:16- For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son that whosoever believeth in him should not perish but have everlasting life. I know this is true and I share these things in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen.

Marriage!!!!

“When I got home that night as ...my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly. She didn’t seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife’s divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me… she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’s time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to office…. jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind…I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push through with the divorce.— At least, in the eyes of our son—- I’m a loving husband….

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves.

So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

If you don’t share this, nothing will happen to you.

If you do, you just might save a marriage. Many of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.”

By: Parwan Banu

Are YOU intune with your voice????

   Since I was a toddler I always loved to sing. When I got to 7th grade I had my chance to show people my talent. But when I audition for choir, the choir director said to me, "Boy how on earth do you have that voice yet your just in the 7th grade?" I said "I don't know. It just comes natural to me." Today I am a Tenor 1 in the Community Choir in the Flathead Valley called the Crown of the Continent Choir and in the Headwaters Ensemble. I am a leader in both of the choirs because I am in tune with my voice. But sometimes I lose my in tunableness with the spirit and the gospel and I know I'm not the only one that does lose sight of it.

    Everyone is busy with their career in life and they get so caught up with their work they lose their sight or "In tune" with Heavenly Father. But how we can ALL come back to that surety that we are in tune with our Heavenly Father and his gospel is to take a step back from your busy schedule and take a breather. Sit down and pick up your scriptures, or go on the Internet and look up your favorite Mormon Message and get that sense of peace and surety that you have been missing in your life. I know this to be true.